Should i get drunk tonight?

Don't do it- if you're alone, you could die due to placing yourself in a dangerous situation, trying to commit suicide since your judgment will already be impaired, or ping out and choking on your own vomit unconsciously given you p out and know one turns you on your side. If you're on your own and you've never done it before, AND you have suicidal thoughts- I strongly recommend that you don't do it. I would seek counseling as well for your depression.